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First, I'm sorry you both found yourselves in such a difficult situation.
From what you've shared, it doesn't sound like either of you intended for this to happen. Sometimes life interrupts even the best-laid plans, and unfortunately, it happened at one of the worst possible moments.
I think it's okay to acknowledge two things at the same time. It's okay to be hurt that you didn't receive the aftercare you needed, and it's also okay to recognize that he was dealing with a family emergency that required his attention.
In the meantime, don't ignore your own needs. If you feel like you're still struggling with the drop, look into forms of self-aftercare or, if you're comfortable, lean on a trusted friend within the kink community for support. While aftercare from your Daddy would have been ideal, it doesn't sound like that's an option at this time, and your need for care doesn't simply disappear because the circumstances changed.
Right now, I'd respect his request for space. Once you've both had time to process everything, have an honest conversation about what happened, how it affected both of you, and what a backup plan for aftercare might look like if something unexpected ever happens again.
Based on what you've shared, I think the first step is having an honest conversation with your Dom.
If going a day or two without communication after play is consistently causing you to experience significant sub drop, that's something they need to know. Aftercare looks different for everyone, but your needs and expectations should be discussed before they become a recurring source of hurt.
It also sounds like there may be some uncertainty about the relationship itself. Before worrying about other partners, I'd focus on understanding what the two of you actually are. Are you play partners? Are you in a dynamic? Are there expectations around exclusivity? Those conversations will give you a lot more clarity than trying to fill in the blanks on your own.
I'd start by letting go of the idea that you have to jump back into where you left off.
After years of stress, both of you have likely changed. Instead of trying to recreate your old dynamic, treat it like you're building a new one together. Talk about what's worked, what hasn't, and what each of you wants now.
Start small, be consistent, and don't underestimate the power of simple tasks and intentional time together. Dynamics are built over time, not overnight.
The name of the game is strategy. Tease him. Taunt him. Drive him wild. Get him so worked up that he can't hold back.
Then make your move. š
If he can still resist after all that, you may have a bigger challenge on your hands than you thought. š
I'm so sorry you're going through that.
Losing a partner is difficult, and when that relationship included a power exchange dynamic, it can feel like you're grieving both the person and the role they filled in your life.
It's also important to remember that grief is not linear. Some days will be easier than others, and healing often comes with a lot of ups and downs.
Right now, I would focus less on finding a replacement and more on taking care of yourself. Some people find it helpful to practice forms of self-submission to maintain parts of their routine that they are having a difficult time going without. Utilizing dice and random number generators to help make the selections for you can help preserve the submissive headspace.
Be patient with yourself. Missing your Daddy doesn't mean you're failing to move on. It means the relationship was meaningful to you, and it's okay to need time to process that loss.
First, there's nothing insane about what you're describing. Many people are Switches, and many people have interests that don't fit neatly into a single role. Having mixed desires is much more common than you might think.
As for finding a partner, there are several places you can start. If you're looking for local, in-person connections, FetLife is a popular place to meet people in the kink community. Think of it like a kinky Facebook focused on community, discussion, events, and meeting like-minded people. If you'd prefer to take things a little slower, there are also large kink communities on online platforms like Discord where you can talk with people, ask questions, and learn more before pursuing a relationship or something in person.
Most importantly, don't feel like you need to hide your interests. The right partner may not share every desire you have, but they shouldn't think you're crazy for having them. Open communication and mutual respect will take you much farther than trying to be someone you're not.
It sounds like the two of you are exploring something new together, and honestly, your hesitation is normal.
When exploring something new, especially degradation or humiliation play, communication is important. Make sure you discuss boundaries beforehand, check in afterward, and remember that it's okay to adjust if something doesn't feel right for either of you.
You canāt really guess whatās going on in his head. If he asked you to call him Sir again, then that is the communication he gave you, and you should take it at face value. Trying to determine whether he secretly loves it, secretly hates it, or is just tolerating it turns into mind reading, and that is a game nobody wins.
If youāre genuinely curious whether he enjoys it or simply doesnāt mind it, ask him directly. Otherwise, trust the information he gave you. He brought it back up himself, so thereās no reason to assume he is just suffering through it for your sake.
Yes, this is completely normal.
What youāre describing is often called being a Switch, which just means you enjoy both sides of a dynamic. You might want to experience something, like having your hair pulled, and also want to be the one giving that same kind of energy to someone else.
Thereās nothing confusing about that. You donāt have to pick one role and stay there forever.
For a lot of people, preferences shift depending on the connection, the mood, or the situation. Some people switch often, some only occasionally, and some find they lean more one way over time.
If youāre just starting out, itās okay to explore both sides and figure out what feels right for you. Thereās no rush to define it.
Youāre not doing it wrong. Youāre just learning what you like.
Hi Jam,
Iām going to start by saying this gently. If you and your wife are thinking about exploring something like this, the most important part is not what you say. Itās what it means to both of you.
Spitting can fall into degradation, humiliation, dominance, or even primal energy depending on the dynamic. For some people it feels intense and intimate. For others it can feel disrespectful or jarring. The act itself is simple. How it feels to the individual involved is what makes it work or makes it fall flat.
So before you focus on lines or technique, have the conversation. Ask her how she feels about it. Does it genuinely turn her on? Does she prefer something sensual and possessive, or something more spur of the moment? Are there words that feel exciting and others that would completely turn her off? That clarity matters more than any script.
When it comes to talk, try thinking less about memorized dirty lines and more about staying present. Talk about what youāre seeing, what youāre enjoying, how she looks, and how she responds. Words about possession, praise, or control often land better because they are personal and related to what is actually happening in the moment.
If youāre looking for direction, you can start by searching for topics like power exchange communication, negotiation in BDSM, and the difference between degradation and humiliation. You can explore articles here on this site or use your favorite search engine to dig a little deeper. The goal is to understand the dynamic, not just copy something you saw online.
At the end of the day, the goal isnāt to perform. Itās to build something that feels exciting and safe inside your relationship.